Love Gone Mad

It was her first time to see him on his last day in our town. The day he came to our town, he caught almost everybody’s attention, except my elder sister, Rita.
He was invited by his grandmother five days before the town fiesta. He came the day before the fiesta. And yesterday was just the fiesta. It was fun; the people really enjoyed all the activities: games, music, dancing, and talking. But me, I was with her. We were stuck in front of the kitchen sink, washing all the dishes that were used in the party.
When I went along with aling Sitang to buy some ingredients in the market, I heard a lot of things about him. His name was Miguel, he was a doctor in the city, and he’s a bachelor, no string attached, and as his grandmother, aling Sitang wishes he would find a girl soon. Being his grandmother she was very proud of him. I can feel it whenever she tells some things about him to her friends, and it’s almost like she’s bragging.

This day, after the fiesta, I went along with Rita to aling Sitang’s house to get the payment for the service we have rendered to her yesterday. As we entered the rusty gate I saw a van on the wide lawn in front of the house, and its engine was on, it seemed to me that someone is leaving, the doctor. I looked up at the terrace. I saw aling Sitang heading down the stairs, behind her was Miguel. He was a tall man, his color was caramel, and he has this handsome face: with his dark chinky eyes, thin pink lips, and a straight angular nose.
They hurriedly went straight to the van while aling Sitang was muttering something, behind her Miguel was just smiling, and I noticed that he has a set of perfect white teeth. I turned and looked up at Rita. I was so curious about what will be her reaction. And I found her looking at Miguel; she flushed and quickly dropped her head. When my gaze returned to Miguel I saw him already seated inside the van. He was clutching the handle of the van’s sliding door that it looks like he’s going to close it, but he was sitting still, stunned, his eyes were fixed on Rita. Maybe he’s thinking that why haven’t he seen her during his stay in our town, why now that he is leaving in a minute.
Aling Sitang turned around to know who he was looking at, and she saw us. She was surprised by our presence. She immediately told Miguel that he better hurry, and that she’s expecting him to come back the next fiesta, he said yes. He gazed at Rita once more and smiled at her before he left.
Later, I and Rita walked home; I asked her what have she felt when Miguel smiled at her. And she said that she has felt blood rushes to her face, and she felt something inside her stomach, it was like there were butterflies, it was a tickling sensation. She laughed at herself for that. She also told me that she think she’s falling in love with Miguel. When she thinks about his face, his smile, her heart beats erratically. It was madness.
Dozens of moons, stars, and suns have passed by. The green rice field before had long gone gold. The town fiesta is fast approaching, and Rita was so impatient, she can’t wait to see him again. Just two weeks to go and she will finally see him.



The fiesta came, and once again aling Sitang hired us both to help her at her house. That morning when we arrived at the house I saw Miguel sitting on the sofa, so he was here already. I caught Rita and Miguel exchanged glances. Miguel smiled at her. But Rita, I almost laughed at her reaction, she was like a little girl that was being introduced to guests in a party, and she was so shy. She hurriedly walked straight to the kitchen and I followed her. Glancing back at Miguel, I caught him chuckling and he winks an eye on me.
The whole morning Rita and I were so busy preparing foods, and washing pots and dishes, together with the other helpers. We’re all happily working in the kitchen, talking and laughing, until noon, when everything was ready. Aling Sitang invited all of us to eat together with the guests.
At the table, everybody helped themselves in getting foods. Miguel intentionally stands beside Rita. And he always did that sidelong glance at her. She just ignored him and kept her head down. Miguel also sat beside her at the corner. I saw them both exchange glances. Miguel tried to make a conversation with her, but she was so shy, and it’s almost she’ll faint whenever he asks her something. All she can manage was to nod.
Later that afternoon, after all the work was done, I was at the backyard, when I heard Rita cried for help. I hurriedly ran back to the kitchen. On the floor, I saw Miguel lying, he was so drunk, and he was mumbling something I can’t understand. Rita was standing near the table, shocked by what had happened, was afraid to come near him. So with all my strength I picked him up and help him get to his room, while Rita called aling Sitang.




Later that evening I saw Rita, holding her diary, walked pass my bedroom’s door into the azotea. There she always wrote her diary. One hour later, after reading my new comic book, I went there. I stopped at the large sliding door. I saw Rita’s diary on the top of the small wooden center table. She was sitting on the antique rocking chair, looking at the distance outside while the night breeze was gently blowing her soft and black hair. The insects play a familiar song outside, familiar in the sense that they played it every night. The moon shone above. Hundreds of stars were at sight. It was a peaceful night indeed.
I greeted her while I sit on the sofa across her. She was surprised. I giggled and I asked her what keeps her wondering at that time of the night, knowing that it was late. Obviously, she said it was him that made her think. It was the doctor and her feelings toward him, and also the fear of showing her love to him. We talked until midnight. And when I saw her yawned I told her that she better go to sleep. She must be really sleepy that she forgot to get her diary on the table when she left. Out of curiosity I flipped through its pages, until I found out what she was writing lately.

It happened this afternoon when I was putting the last plate on the rack. He entered the kitchen. He was drunk. He came up to me, and God knows how I felt when he held my hand, and he gently touched my face. His huge and soft hand brings a tingling sensation on my cheeks when he caressed it. My world spun swiftly when he said that he loves me, and the last thing I knew his lips were on mine. I was taken aback, surprised by what he did, and he was surprised too, to my reaction maybe. He said I should not worry and that he won’t hurt me because he loves me. He said these words so gentle and sweet that it almost melts my heart. He pulled me back, and again he kissed me. He kissed me deeply. Even his breath smells alcohol and cigar’s smoke his kiss was still sweet. And I felt a strange sensation when his tongue thrust inside my mouth, and brushed into my teeth and tongue. I can’t understand why I like what he did. I tried to respond but he suddenly collapsed. And I was left standing there, gasping for air, heart pounding. I looked down at him lying on the floor, very drunk.

Remembering what had happened; my mind was occupied by so many thoughts. Does he really mean it when he said he loves me? Because I think I was really in loved with him now.

So that was it. I closed the diary and put it back on the table, leaving it where it was been placed. I went to my room and sleep.



The next fiesta we were surprised with the news of aling Sitang, the doctor was coming, not alone but together with his fiancé. The news made Rita cry. I saw how her world shattered at that moment. She was suddenly engulfed with grief. So what was that kiss all about? Was it just like that? He had kissed my sister, and for her that kisses was a vow of his love for her. And now he’s arriving with the other girl which to whom he surrendered his heart.
With a heavy heart Rita still went with me to serve at aling Sitang. When we came, she insisted that we’ll take the backdoor to the kitchen, I just followed her. Rita was not in the proper mood, she never talked, and she doesn’t even laugh with us when someone in the kitchen cracks a joke on something.
Again, we were all invited to join lunch with the guests.
In the dinning room Miguel’s fiancé sat beside him in the table. Judging by her looks, she was the same age with Miguel. She was beautiful, properly dressed with elegance, and has a feministic grace.
I looked at Rita, she wasn’t looking at them, but I know she was hurt, of course, who wouldn’t be? Miguel acted formal when he saw Rita, he became quiet, and I noticed that he avoided looking at the direction where Rita was.
Rita ate little, I noticed. She went back to the kitchen ahead of us after she has eaten. When Miguel saw it he excused himself to get something in the bedroom. But I knew he will follow Rita.

That afternoon, when we arrived at home, she hurriedly went to her room and locked herself there. She wouldn’t eat. My mother tried to talk to her but she wouldn’t talk, she just told mother that she’s not feeling well.
After dinner, after a moment of hesitation, I went to her room. I knocked on the door, but there was no answer coming from her inside. All I can hear was her sobbing. I wanted to enter her room but it was locked, so I went to my room, hoped that everything will be all right for her tomorrow, and fell asleep immediately.
Three o’clock in the morning I was awoken by the loud banging sound of Rita’s bedroom door. My father was forced to open it. I got up and hurriedly went there, and to my surprise, Rita was lying on her bed, unconscious, mother was hugging her while crying. There was an open bottle of medicine on the floor, and some pills were scattered. My father called for an ambulance. It came and fetches the three of them to the hospital.
I stayed at home. I can’t bring my self to sleep again. I was frightened to something I do not know. Made it was the aftermath of what had happened to Rita.
I went to her room. Her diary was the only thing that can gave me the answer why she did that stupid thing. I checked all over the room where it was hidden: under the bed cover, inside her drawer, and inside her closet. I found it at the latter, under a pile of blouses. I scanned the diary until I found the new page she had written.


I cry because this is so much for me to bear. It hurts; he is my first love, and also the first to break my heart. My heart is broken beyond repair; no other element can heal it, except love.
He said he was just drunk that time when he kissed me and that it was a mistake. I was so stupid to believe, I thought it was really serious, because that kiss made me hoped that he really loves me. He said he was sorry for hurting my feeling. I was like being slapped on the face and it awoke me that it was really the end, and it made me realize that I can’t really have him. I can’t own his heart. He said I’m too young for him, that I have a lot of things needed to know more in life. He was thirty and I am eighteen. But so what? For me hearts doesn’t have age.
He will just be a bitter memory that I will keep for the rest of my life. He will always be in my heart.

She was crazy to risk her life just because of love. It was really true that many had gone mad because of love, and she was one of those.

Three days later, I went to that hospital to see Rita. I brought her some fresh fruits and flowers, and a sad news that will really adds to her heartache. She gave me a sad smile when I enter her room.
“How are you?” I asked.
“I’m fine now, but my heart still isn’t.” she answered.
“I’ve been reading your diary.” I told her with an apologetic look. She was surprised, and I can see hate through her eyes. She asked why I did that.
“It’s because I want to know why you’ve done that to your self. Don’t worry; I won’t tell anybody, no one will know anything about it. I know it hurts so much to be left out just like that, especially when you expected so much from him, and now you are disappointed. You have to be strong. Because you really can’t have him, especially now that he’s…” I can’t find the courage to say it. It was hard. It will be like a curse that will make her suffer.
“Go on.” She was so eager to know.
“Now that he’s…he’s dead.” I finally told her. She was shocked, then suddenly pain was painted all over her face, and then tears came after. She looked outside the window; the sun rays made her tears sparkled like little diamond.
“They had an accident going back to Manila. Both of them died, Miguel and his fiancé. Their car collided into a truck.” I continued.

She cries out loud. I sat beside her and embrace her. I can feel her body tremble, and suddenly the whole room was filled with sadness. Her sob was like a lullaby, she fell asleep with it. I looked at her face. I pity her for experiencing all of these problems at her young age. All she needed was love but she didn’t have it. He was her first love, but he was gone now, gone forever.

from the journal of a Schizophrenic: the modern twist

Last night i dream that i was inside a moving train. I was sitting on a bench next to the window. Beside me sat a young lady and a young man. They were both chattering, they said that the train was Optimus Prime. The name rings a bell. It was a character of a movie, TRANSFORMERS. Their kind can change themselves into something mechanical, like cars, airplanes, tanks, and etc., whenever they want to.

Across our seat, in front of me sat Taylor Swift and Bella Swan. I was in deep shocked to see Bella with her puffy eyes. She has been crying since she had boarded the train. She wiped her tears, and she asked Taylor, “ Where is this train going?” Taylor answered, “ In to Hogwarts”. “Oh my gosh! I thought were going to Paris?”, said Bella. Taylor just shrugged, then she got her guitar and played a familiar melody.

I looked outside the window. Outside was a great sea of grasses. Suddenly something caught my attention. There was this white horse and a dark form riding over. It was very fast and it was coming right to my window. It was Edward Cullen. Bella sauntered toward the window. She was crying and she keeps on shouting the name of Edward. Suddenly Taylor sang, “ NOW IT’S TOO LATE FOR YOU AND YOUR WHITE HORSE TO COME ALONG"...

wowowie

The television was on

On it, I see

The little girl is crying,

Her parents can’t send her to school

“They are picking garbage at the streets”,

The little girl explained.

The audience gave her some money

But she lost the game.

failed again

I can’t believe this, I have been dumped again.

He’s t he only friend I have here in my own fabricated world.

I thought we could be good pals.

But he left for a strange reason.

I thought that he would bring me the dawn of a new sunny morning.

But he just made my night even longer than before.

Maybe I should get the “Great Looser” award.

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from Google.com: My Tutor Friend

This movie is about the lives of Kim Ji-Hoon (Kwon Sang-Woo) and Choi Su-Wan (Kim Ha-Neul), both 21 years old. Su-Wan is in her second year at university while Ji-Hoon is still in the process of repeating his third year of high school. Su-Wan’s mother works in their family business, selling fried chicken. To help out, Su-Wan earns money by tutoring other children, but often gets fired after hitting the students. Her mother has a rich friend with a son in need of a tutor. The friend, Kim Ji-Hoon’s mother, wants a tutor that will make her son study so that he can pass his exams. This salary is able to pay for an entire semester (half of a school year) of Su-Wan’s college education. Ji-Hoon is always able to attract the girls and draw attention through his love of fighting. He fought at his new high school, Surim High School and managed to offend Jong-Seo Lee, the leader of the triad group at Surim. He was able to attract his girlfriend, Ho-Gyung Yan, through his fighting. He had problems with everyone. Including the entire gang at his high school, he beat up a member of another gang after they took things from his little brother. Besides studying, Ji-Hoon is actually fairly well rounded. As a child, Ji-Hoon was sent to America to study abroad. Due to this decision of his parents, the relationship between Ji-Hoon and his parents is strained. Ji-Hoon’s Father, Kim Bong-Man is threatening to send him back to the USA if he continues to get into trouble with fighting and bad grades. To avoid being sent back to America, Ji-Hoon needs to get at least a 50% on the upcoming mid-term exams. The only problem is that his usual average mark was much lower than that. Will he make it?
Yes, he manages to do it. At the end of the term, he barely ends up with a passing grade (50.1), but passing nonetheless. As a result from a bet that the two, Ji-Hoon and Su-Wan, Su-Wan must dance in front of a crowd during a festival that was taking place. While embarrassed and shy at first, she eventually gets really into dancing and so does the audience. Ji-Hoon is starting to really like Su-Wan at this point and is angry when he sees all of the guys watching her and running up to the stage. Near this point is also when Su-Wan’s boyfriend comes back home. When spying on the couple, Ji-Hoon learns that Su-Wan’s boyfriend is breaking up with her. The next day, Ji-Hoon shows up at his house and beats him up for leaving her. Later, however, he finds out that the reason that he was leaving Su-Wan was because he was becoming a priest. After the service, Ji-Hoon lets Su-Wan beat him up for a little bit. Once she settles down, he decides to take her sky sailing. This is when Ji-Hoon decides to tell Su-Wan that he likes her. Su-Wan does not know how to respond and pretends she cannot hear him. Later on, they go to an amusement park. Just when Ji-Hoon is about to give Su-Wan a present, Su-Wan sees her close friend at the park with her boyfriend. This is the friend that Su-Wan previously confided in about dealing with this student. Originally, Su-Wan’s friend thought that Ji-Hoon was her boyfriend, but Su-Wan, however, says that she would never go out with him. This makes Ji-Hoon mad and he throws her present into the fountain and leaves.
Eventually, all of Ji-Hoon’s fighting catches up with him. Near the end of the movie, Ji-Hoon has to deal with all of the problems that have been building up. First, his girlfriend is mad and is making him choose between her and Su-Wan. Once he chooses Su-Wan, he isn’t finished. He still needs to deal with the high school gang and the real gang members. Ji-Hoon and Su-Wan manage to run away for a little bit, but they get cornered and Ji-Hoon has to fight everyone on the beach. Once all of the other gang members are down, Ji-Hoon still has to deal with the best fighter of all. Ji-Hoon is at the man’s mercy, but Su-Wan is able to save Ji-Hoon. And then Su-wan and Ji-Hoon drive away on Su-Wan's motor skooter, Su-Wan is driving while Ji-Hoon sits behind and holds her waist and they go off together. In the end the movie ties up with Su-wan and Ji-hoon becoming boyfriend and girlfriend.
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Cast
Kwon Sang-woo - Kim Ji-hoon - is a troubled and wealthy third year high school student who was hired a tutor to help him complete his high school requirements.
Kim Ha-neul - Choi Su-wan - comes from a modest lower middle class family. She is a second year college student that is hired to tutor Ji-hoon in order for him to complete his high school requirements.
Baek Il-seob - Ji-hoon’s father - his father sent Ji-hoon to America as a child and now threatens to send him back there if he does not turn around his bad behavior and begin to get good grades.
Kim Ji-woo - Ho-Kyeong - Ji hoon’s girlfriend who is attracted to him because of the fights he gets into.
Gong Yoo - Jong-Soo - Ji hoon’s nemesis who he is constantly feuding with during the movie.

from Google:Innocent Steps

Moon Geun-young, star of the hit romantic comedy My Little Bride, takes the lead role in Innocent Steps, romantic comedy from director Park Young-Hun. The teen idol plays Jang Chae-Ryn, an ethnic Korean living in China, who finds herself to be a complete fish out of water after being transplanted abroad to South Korea. When her sister bows out of a dummy marriage to a champion dance instructor, Chae-Ryn decides to travel to Seoul herself and impersonate her sister. Once in South Korea, she meets Na Young-Sae (Park Geon-Hyeong), who has agreed to the sham marriage for the sole purpose of locating a new dance partner. It seems he's looking to replace the one he lost to his rival, the dastardly Jeong Hyeon-Su (Yoon Chan). But when Chae-Ryn's secret and her lack of dancing experience is revealed, Young-Sae wants to send his new bride back. Eventually, however, he has second thoughts and decides that his only hope is to train this wide-eyed novice himself. Of course, the practices start off as purely professional, but as Chae-Ryn begins to dedicate herself to the art of dancing, a connection between the newlyweds begins to take shape. Chae-Ryn's youthful exuberance and folksy way of speaking eventually charms Young-Sae's hardened heart. A subplot follows two immigration officers who seek to expose the couple's secret, but eventually end up rooting for the two to stay together.
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Main cast
Moon Geun-young – Jang Chae-ryn
Park Geon-hyeong – Na Young-sae
Park Won-sang – Ma Sang-doo
Yoon Chan – Jung Hyun-soo